It was obvious something was on her mind.
So, instead of just ignoring it and going to bed, I asked what was wrong.
It took a little bit of conversation to uncover the issue.
“Mom, I just can’t deal with the possibility of you dieing. Not again, not right now.– Mom, I need you too much.”
Words can’t express the emotion we both were feeling at this juncture.
“Honey, you have to let go of me and cling to the Lord.”
“Mom, are we going to make it?”
This isn’t the kind of question you handle flippantly.
Because anyone who has lost a loved one knows, you are never the same after the loss.
Of course my heart hurts for my daughter.
Of all the things which have been difficult during this illness, watching my family watch me struggle has hurt most.
But God is so good!
He already had an answer ready for this really tough question.
“I don’t know what is going to happen. But God has all of our days in His hands. None of us knows when our last day is, but we can trust God. We can do the task at hand and worship and praise Him, for every day is a gift from God.”
“I want you to remember that heaven is a real place. And it’s incredible!”
Our conversation continued a short while longer, but it was obvious the question had been answered.
Sure, we will probably need to chat again, covering the same ground.
But that’s true for all of us.
No one is immune to fear, doubt, or worry.
But Jesus and His Holy Word are the cure.
I praise God for tough questions.
They give me the opportunity to pour into the lives of our children.
And I was blessed to be able to remind our daughter of something I’ve said many times.
“I don’t like the fact that you and your siblings have to walk through this with me and I know it must be scary and hard. I can’t help but think that God has a plan for this. He is going to use it in your life. Somehow He will use it, maybe to prepare you for the future He has for you.”
The same is true for all of us.
Whatever we are going through God can use it.
He can use it for His good in the lives of others.
Isaiah 61:3 NKJV — To console those who mourn in Zion, To give them beauty for ashes, The oil of joy for mourning, The garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; That they may be called trees of righteousness, The planting of the LORD, that He may be glorified.”
I don’t know what may occur.
But I want to bring glory to the Lord Jesus.
May He be glorified!