Like the frost covering the ground this morning, my unacknowledged fear had coated my outlook.
Dread, had coated my attitude and I’d walked in that for days, unaware of the distortion of my perspective.
The realization that I’d been dreading this day hit me this morning.
Which is embarrassing, but true.
Where’s the fear coming from?
The Lord pointed directly to my fear while I was praying.
After all this time of chronic illness, I’m afraid of the unknown.
Which is why it’s embarrassing to admit my fear, because the future is always an unknown for us, but it’s never an unknown for Jesus.
In prayer, He showed me that my unwillingness to try a new doctor or medication is a failure to trust Him.
He reminded me that when I was the sickest I’ve been with this, I had the opportunity to share the love of Jesus with many.
He also reminded me, that He is in charge of all these things and I should never dread the unknown, because no matter what, He is with me.
It’s funny how we can hide our true feelings from others and ourselves, but never from God.
I’m so thankful He has revealed that which was lurking in my heart, so I can be honest about it, repent for it, and turn to Jesus to heal and restore.
James 5:16 KJV — Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much.
Dear Lord Jesus,
Thank You for Your Word. Thank You for showing me my heart to clearly and for restoring me to faith, trust, and love. Lord, thank You for Your patience with me. I’m so grateful for Your gentle correction and Your love. Lord Jesus, please continue to teach me through Your Word, that I might not sin against You. Thank You for life experiences which bring out what is in my heart and draws attention to the areas which need Your touch. Thank You for Your promises and the joy of Your salvation. Lord Jesus, I know You are walking with me always. Thank You for Your faithfulness, mercy, and grace. I love You, Jesus. Amen.