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Another chance

Yesterday morning, the Lord spoke clearly to my heart.

He was reminding me of truth and warning me.

I needed to trust and not allow fear, at all.

To rest in His will and be willing to obey in all things, was the direction.

In the morning, I felt able to walk in this.

By the afternoon, I had slid backwards with my attitude and I didn’t even realize it.

At some point, I’d taken my eyes off of Jesus and was trying to do things in my own strength.

God was faithful, all day long.

He continued to guide and direct me.

He continued to speak softly and at one point, He clearly told me to change what I was doing.

I did and my attitude improved greatly.

But it wasn’t until bedtime I saw myself fully.

As we were praying together, it was clearly before me.

I hadn’t walked in His words throughout the day.

I had forgotten His warning and had allowed myself to grow discontent with my circumstances.

I had pushed myself into activity, instead of resting in God’s hands and trusting Him to do all.

Thus, I’d disobeyed His warning from my morning quiet time.

My heart was ashamed, and I confessed before the Lord and my family my wrong.

God’s forgiveness is amazing!

My heart was encouraged, that although I’d failed in that day, God was giving me another chance.

Today is that chance.

Today, I can surrender to the Lord, and walk in contentment and obedience.

Today, God is giving me another chance.

Lamentations 3:22-23 NKJV — Through the LORD’s mercies we are not consumed, Because His compassions fail not. They are new every morning; Great is Your faithfulness.

Dear Lord Jesus,

Thank You for Your Word. Thank You for Your compassion, understanding, patience, and mercy. Lord, please help me to obey You throughout my day, not allowing myself to slide into old ways and forgetting Your truth. Lord, I’m ashamed that I failed yesterday, but I’m so thankful for Your mercy and this new day. Thank You. Lord, in my struggles with self discipline, I humbly ask that You teach this stubborn heart. Lord, continue to help me to be humble before You, quick to listen and quick to obey. Please continue to polish me that I might reflect You to those around me, especially my own family who see me at my worst. Lord, I want to pick up my cross and follow You with joy, thankfulness, and humility. Please help me to do so today. Again, thank You for Your faithfulness, compassion, and mercy. Amen.

Truth in a moment of grief

Can you imagine the disappointment?

Martha knew Jesus.

She knew Jesus cared for her family.

No doubt, she’d seen the miracles of healing.

Yet, when she was the most desperate, the most in need of His healing, He was absent, although she and Mary had sent word.

John 11:3 NKJV — Therefore the sisters sent to Him, saying, “Lord, behold, he whom You love is sick.”

Not only did Jesus choose not to go visit Lazarus when he was sick, He didn’t arrive right after his death either.

John 11:17 NKJV — So when Jesus came, He found that he had already been in the tomb four days.

From Martha’s perspective, Jesus’s absence must have been extremely disappointing.

John 11:20 NKJV — Then Martha, as soon as she heard that Jesus was coming, went and met Him, but Mary was sitting in the house.

Martha had heard Jesus was coming and had gone to face Him with her disappointment.

John 11:21-22 NKJV — Now Martha said to Jesus, “Lord, if You had been here, my brother would not have died. But even now I know that whatever You ask of God, God will give You.”

Jesus gives her the truth, but like most of us, Martha doesn’t understand what God is doing.

John 11:23 NKJV — Jesus said to her, “Your brother will rise again.”

John 11:24 NKJV — Martha said to Him, “I know that he will rise again in the resurrection at the last day.”

Through this story we get one of the most profound scriptures, spoken by Jesus.

25 Jesus said to her, “I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in Me, though he may die, he shall live. 26 And whoever lives and believes in Me shall never die. Do you believe this?”
John 11:25‭-‬26 NKJV

In the midst of Martha’s lowest point, when she is deeply hurting, confused, disappointed, and clothed in grief, Jesus speaks to her the truth and the hope every single human needs and can put their trust in.

Her response is beautiful.

John 11:27 NKJV — She said to Him, “Yes, Lord, I believe that You are the Christ, the Son of God, who is to come into the world.”

Did she understand that Jesus was going to raise her brother from the dead?

No, or she wouldn’t have said:

John 11:39 NKJV — Jesus said, “Take away the stone.” Martha, the sister of him who was dead, said to Him, “Lord, by this time there is a stench, for he has been dead four days.”

Her response to Jesus’s words about being the Resurrection was trust.

She didn’t understand what God was doing in her life.

She couldn’t see her brother’s death as anything more than a tragedy.

She did choose to trust Jesus, despite the circumstances.

John 11:43-44 NKJV — Now when He had said these things, He cried with a loud voice, “Lazarus, come forth!”And he who had died came out bound hand and foot with graveclothes, and his face was wrapped with a cloth. Jesus said to them, “Loose him, and let him go.”

Can you imagine the celebration?!

Although there are tragedies, grief, and extreme disappointment Jesus is

“…the resurrection and the life. He who believes in Me, though he may die, he shall live. And whoever lives and believes in Me shall never die.” John 11:25b-26

It doesn’t guarantee our circumstances will fall into place the way we desire.

Choosing trust is to fall in place with Jesus.

Like Martha, we can choose to trust God.

Not knowing the future, but knowing the One who is the future.

Philippians 1:21 KJV — For to me to live is Christ, and to die is gain.

I bet Lazarus understood this truth better than anyone else present.

Dear Lord Jesus,

Thank You for Your truth. Thank You that You are the Resurrection and the life! What can possibly be more profound than God as man dieing for our sins and rising again?! Your sacrifice is beyond my comprehension. Your love, mercy, and grace out strip anything I’ve experienced in this world. Lord Jesus, Your Word is amazing. Please, let those who have hurt, grief, loss, disappointment, and deep pain find healing in You. Please open the eyes to see, the ears to hear, and soften the hearts, that they might turn and be healed. Lord, please continue to hone our hearts and minds that we might trust You no matter the circumstances. For You are worthy of all our trust, love, honor, glory, and praise. Amen.

A lesson in humility

Lately, God has been using our furniture business to teach me faith in a new way and I had a large dose of humility to wash it down.

I had been praying for my husband.

Specifically, to have direction with the business.

I felt like God wanted me to pray for my husband to hear Him and then to act upon what he heard.

I also felt God warning me.

I was to trust my husband to hear from God and not to get in his way by having a crummy attitude.

Which surprised me, I thought I had a good attitude about the business, but I prayed for my husband to hear and for my heart to be obedient.

The same day, just a bit later my husband calls me.

He had purchased the contents of a storage unit.

He hasn’t done that in months and we had an agreement from a previous experience to not purchase anything without running it by the other.

At first I felt bewildered and slightly offended that he hadn’t asked my opinion about it before purchasing.

My mind started down the, “but what about.. !?”

Thankfully, the Lord reminded me of the prayer before I said anything.

So, I began to pray for God to help me get my attitude sorted out.

When I received the pictures of the unit, it became more difficult.

It wasn’t a dirty unit, as some are really gross.

But I honestly couldn’t see much in the way of furniture.

There were two nightstands, but those don’t sell well.

There was a cute metal outdoor table and chair set.

It was weathered and would need paint.

Other than that, I couldn’t see anything we could turn.

There was a bike, a plastic and pressed board shelving unit, and what looked like two flat panel doors, all of this would cost us a fee at the dump.

But God had spoken and I kept praying.

The next day we went to get the stuff.

Imagine my emotion as we pull in with our truck and trailer only to discover it had 6 parking spaces (all full) and a drive, no place for us to be save the side of the drive.

When my husband came back from the office, he also told us the unit was on the third floor of a very clean building.

I would have to stay in the truck, because I can’t handle the odor from cleaning products.

I did a lot of praying.

As we loaded things into the truck, my struggle increased.

Since I was stuck at the truck, I got to start going through the boxes.

I really don’t like going through boxes.

The Lord was so faithful, and continued to remind me to trust Him.

Thankfully, nothing awful had been boxed up, although there wasn’t anything of value either.

When the table and chairs came down, I knew we would be able to make our money back.

They were nice and wouldn’t require much work, we hadn’t wasted our money or time.

It was the proof I needed, God was in this.

Which was perfect timing because the black plastic and pressed board shelving unit was less than exciting, then there was a bunch of weird shaped metal pieces, and the “doors” turned out to be heavy and difficult to load.

By the last load I wasn’t struggling anymore, and God was just beginning my lesson in humility.

It began with a surprise.

A large sleigh bed which matched the nightstands.

“Well, praise God! What a blessing!”

My husband was happy too.

He told me until it had gotten uncovered he was questioning if he’d heard the Lord correctly.

I felt badly, because I hadn’t been as supportive as I should have.

In fact, I was sure my attitude was what had caused his doubt.

I asked him to forgive me and told him about my prayer and how God was teaching me.

In my heart I again repented for my struggles with distrust and thanked God for His faithfulness.

The next day my husband came from looking everything over.

“You know those two heavy pieces? The ones that look a bit like doors? They are tables and we have all the pieces for them, that’s what those weird hunks of metal are. I’m really glad, we can sell both of them. It means we don’t have to sell the outdoor table and chairs.”

“Babe, why wouldn’t we sell them? They will look really nice once we paint them.”

“They match your chase lounge.”

I just started at him, not really sure what was happening.

“Honey, I know how much you miss having a table and chairs outside, that’s why I wanted that unit in the first place. They will look so nice with your chair once we paint them to match.”

I hadn’t even told my husband how much I was missing having outdoor dining!

I’d prayed about my desire more than once, turning it over to the Lord and asking Him to help me be content with what He has provided.

Talk about a lesson in walking with the Lord!

Here my hubby and the Lord were simply trying to bless me and I’m having an attitude, because I completely miss what’s actually occurring.

I thanked my husband and the Lord.

And I prayed again that my heart would learn to trust.

I can only imagine the mess I would have made if God had not already been working.

Instead of shame and regret, my heart was and is full.

Full of peace, that God is guiding us, full of love I don’t deserve, and so thankful for His patience.

I’m so blessed.

And by God’s grace I’m learning to walk in humility.

Proverbs 29:23 KJV — A man’s pride shall bring him low: but honour shall uphold the humble in spirit.

Dear Lord Jesus,

Thank You so much for Your faithfulness, patience, and guidance. Lord, thank You for speaking to my husband and leading our family through him. Lord, please continue to teach me to put off pride, fear, doubt, and distrust. Lord, continue to draw me back to Your ways of love, trust, truth, humility, and peace. I know You are so good and there’s nothing I need besides You. Thank You for this lesson in humility. Thank You for showing me my pride and distrust. Please continue to”remove the dross”. Thank You, Jesus. Amen.

The last day before a new beginning

Packed up and ready to go.

Tomorrow, Anne will be moving in with Grandma.

It’s a wonderful blessing.

But not easy.

Anne is not only a huge help and support around the house, she’s a gentle, beautiful, friend.

I’ve valued our talks and although I’ll be keeping in touch, I know we will both miss our daily time.

It’s part of the blessing of having children who choose to follow the Lord as adults.

We are honored to enjoy good relationships, but we have to be willing to let go of our personal desires.

We have to be willing to love them wherever the Lord takes them.

Of course, our Anne isn’t planning on living with Grandma permanently.

Experience has taught me, once a young adult steps out on their walk with the Lord and it leads away from home, they may return, but it won’t be the same, nor should it be.

I once had a father, referring to his son leaving home to pursue God’s path say to me,

“It’s why we have them, these arrows in the hand, to shoot them out into the world to do God’s work.”

He’s completely right.

These little ones under our feet are in training.

To be nurtured and loved and taught, that they might walk with the Lord as adults, being used by Him to reach others.

It’s such a blessing and responsibility to be granted the task and as we send off this youngest daughter, I’m expectant.

I know God is with her and will do wonderful things in and through her.

In my heart will be joy as we “let fly” our arrow tomorrow.

Psalm 127:4 KJV — As arrows are in the hand of a mighty man; so are children of the youth.

Dear Lord Jesus,

Thank You for each of our children. Thank You for these years of training, nurture, and love. Thank You that our girl is choosing to follow Your calling for her summer and I trust You to show her what You are calling her to after that. Thank You for Your faithfulness, love, and provision. Lord, as Anne spends time with Grandma, I ask that they will both be blessed by You. That they will be encouraged in Your ways and strengthen by Your Word. Lord, help them to meet each day with prayer and trust, knowing they can rest in You for all things. Please help them walk through the details of life with joy. Thank You, Jesus. Amen.

“Whom shall I fear?”

Psalm 27:1 NKJV — A Psalm of David. The LORD is my light and my salvation; Whom shall I fear? The LORD is the strength of my life; Of whom shall I be afraid?

It’s a slick, crafty, sneaking kind, the voice of fear which piggybacks upon “reason”, “caution”, and “sense”.

Too often its poison has seeped into thoughts and begun to sway actions before those influenced by it are even aware of the change.

It takes God’s Spirit and His Word to reveal the truth of fear.

Because if we succumb to fear, our very existence becomes tainted and our love dies.

Fear is a cruel and unjust Master.

Fear is the direct enemy of love.

It often leads the heart to hate.

But God has defeated fear by crushing sin and death.

Without the fear of eternal death, what is there to fear?

King David, of all people, understood what it was to live through extremely frightening circumstances.

He was on the “hit list” of both his own king, his own son, and from enemy countries.

He had literally run for his life many times.

Yet, he penned these words:

Psalm 27:1 NKJV — A Psalm of David. The LORD is my light and my salvation; Whom shall I fear? The LORD is the strength of my life; Of whom shall I be afraid?

His trust was solid.

His love of God was unwavering.

His heart knew he need not fear.

And ours should know this as well.

For Christ died and rose again, and His sacrifice is our salvation.

With this security, we need not fear, but trust and love our Lord Jesus.

We do this by putting our lives in His hands, surrendering ourselves into His perfect plan, and living obediently unto His Word.

Psalm 56:11 KJV — In God have I put my trust: I will not be afraid what man can do unto me.

Proverbs 29:25 KJV — The fear of man bringeth a snare: but whoso putteth his trust in the LORD shall be safe.

For the redeemed, God’s love is our security, our sanctuary, our safe place.

1 John 4:18 KJV — There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love.

Dear Lord Jesus,

Thank You for Your Word. Thank You for Your promises. Lord, thank You for being life, truth, and the way. Lord, You reach us exactly where we are. Your Word is truth in every generation. Please continue to help me to walk in Your love and to be on guard against fear. Lord, help me remember that fear kills faith and strangles love. Lord Jesus, I want to walk with You in all things; to be loving, faithful, kind, honest, honorable, and wise. Please help me to do so. Please walk with me in today. Thank You for showing me where I was afraid and teaching me to trust. I love You, Jesus. Amen.

In the past week

Our latest furniture project.

I knew of some items on our schedule, which I wanted to pray for, but I didn’t expect our week to be what it was.

In the past seven days, our family has experienced some big things.

(Some of them I will share with you in a later post.)

It’s been a blessing to give extra time to prayer, because we’ve needed it!

My husband’s grandmother had a heart attack and at 93, we thought we were going to loss her.

I am praising the Lord for continuing to sustain her and she’s recovering.

Our truck was in the shop the entire week due to a part not coming in.

This really threw a wrench in our plans as my hubby took time off from work to get it down to the shop and spend time with his parents while in that area.

He did end up spending one night with them after all, but we had to call in a favor to get him back home.

God worked it out perfectly and we were thankful.

Our homeschool schedule has changed and Jase is finding it difficult.

I have peace that he will adjust and although it’s challenging, it will get easier with the passage of time.

Hubby was able to make some changes to our veggie garden and get the pea plant stakes up.

Jase planted the peas.

Once he turns over the soil, we will plant the beans and tomatoes.

I thank God every time I look out the bedroom window for how He’s blessed me with the back garden.

We had a furniture “moment” which we thought was going to equal days of work to sand off and start over.

But God stepped in and it turned out our expectations were off, the piece is turning out exactly as hoped, praise God!

Our friends had their baby!

We’ve been praying for this baby from the beginning.

His parents are thrilled and so are we.

We are so thankful for God’s gift and walking with them through this.

Children are such blessings, a heritage from the Lord.

A newborn baby is such a beautiful testimony of God, our Creator.

Our week has been such a testament to His faithfulness.

My heart can say with the Psalmist:

Psalm 139:13-14 NKJV — For You formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mother’s womb. I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works, And that my soul knows very well.

Dear Lord Jesus,

Thank You so much for all Your blessings and Your faithfulness. Lord, thank You for Your wonderous works are not one week or even one lifetime, but throughout all eternity! My mind can not even grasp that. Lord, You have again reaffirmed to me that no matter what is occurring or how things seem to be difficult or trying, You are God and I should place my trust in You and allow You to direct my steps. For great is Your faithfulness! I can’t always see it at the moment, but I know it is true. You see far more then I shall ever understand and I choose to trust You and Your Word. Thank You for this week. Lord, please continue to guide, direct, and teach me in Your ways and Your truth. Thank You. Amen.

April 23

Micah 6:8 NKJV — He has shown you, O man, what is good; And what does the LORD require of you But to do justly, To love mercy, And to walk humbly with your God?

Dear Lord Jesus,

Thank You for Your Word. Thank You for making it clear what You want for us daily, to do justly, to love mercy, and to walk humbly with You. Lord, thank You, for Your Word is life! Please, teach me daily how to live righteously before You. That my words, my deeds, and my thoughts might align with Your Word and Your will. Lord, please guide our family, and help us to see Your truth and to obey it. To walk with integrity before You. Lord Jesus, thank You for providing for the needy, healing the sick, saving the lost, returning the prodigal, and protecting the innocent. Lord, in this world we will have trouble, but we know we can look to You and trust Your Word. You give us life. Thank You! You give us salvation. Thank You! You give us a home in heaven which we could never earn. Thank You! Lord, for those things we are walking and trusting You in today, please help us to never stop praising You! For You know what is best and our lives are safe in Your hands no matter the circumstances. I love You, Jesus. Thank You for first loving me! Amen.

A letter

My dear friend,

I wanted to write to you and let you know what God has been teaching me.

I’m also praying for you, as I don’t know all you are going through, but Jesus does.

Uncertain times can bring fear and doubt, but for those of us who know Jesus, it is a place of surrender.

Which is where we should live as believers.

In fact, surrender is a pleasure, because it frees us of thinking we are in charge or that we have to do or must be whatever.

With total surrender we get to wait upon the Lord in peace.

To walk forward in Him and not worry.

It’s what Paul said:

Philippians 4:11-14 NKJV — Not that I speak in regard to need, for I have learned in whatever state I am, to be content: I know how to be abased, and I know how to abound. Everywhere and in all things I have learned both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

Paul had learned the practice of daily surrender and he knew there was nothing that he could not endure, because Christ was his Master and through him he could walk whether hungry or full.

Too often, especially in our culture, we think we “have to do…”.

Yet, it is only true if we were given the task by God.

Him and His Word is what we must obey and listen to, not our flesh, not our family, not our neighbors.

At least not any of those before we listen to God and His Word. (We should always check what we “heard” to make sure it aligns with scripture. God doesn’t contradict Himself.)

We must have a teachable spirit, because often God will guide and direct us through the voices of others, but that’s why our relationship with the Lord and studying His word must come first.

Only with a heart completely surrendered before God can we truly hear those around us.

Life was not given for us to live unto our selfish desires.

Nor to achieve our own made-up priorities.

Life was given as a gift, but we should give it back.

Sin has marred the heart so much that we can never find true life without first giving ourselves to God completely, without even a piece left out.

True surrender means Job:

Job 1:21 NKJV — And he said: “Naked I came from my mother’s womb, And naked shall I return there. The LORD gave, and the LORD has taken away; Blessed be the name of the LORD.”

This is surrender.

Job understood all that had been trusted to his care was not his and could be removed at any time.

His life was not his position, family, experience, nor his stuff.

His life was God’s and he would praise him no matter the circumstances.

That is where true joy is.

In finding that one can truly praise God no matter what is occurring.

That I can trust Him no matter the obstacle or the emotion.

There is nothing to despair, because my Savior lives!

There’s nothing I need to prove to others, because my Savior lives!

What does man think of me? It doesn’t matter.

My Savior lives!

What blessed joy!

What grand design!

How great is our God!

May God bless and keep you my friend,

Love, Hope

Dear Lord Jesus,

Thank You so much for Your love! Thank You for salvation! How grateful I am to You for Your gift of friendship to me. I’m so blessed to have such wonderful friends and family who love me as they do. Lord, please lift up my friend and bring them to a place of rest and trust in You. Heal their heart of past hurts and restore them to faith in You. Lord, let them see themselves and others as You do. Let them walk with understanding and truth. Lord, please open the scriptures to them, that they might find the Way. Let their hearts find peace in surrender. Let them put all their trust in You. Thank You, Jesus. Amen.

Displacing gloom

It’s been a few weeks.

I’ve just been extra tired or had migraines or just simply didn’t feel well.

It’s difficult to be open about days like this, as I never want to complain, but instead rejoice in the daily blessings.

This morning I felt like Eeyore.

Just a tad on the gloomy side.

Mostly, due to today’s physical limitations.

But I know what is the priority when I’m in these difficulties.

It’s extra time with Jesus.

As I prayed this morning the Lord gave me this verse.

Psalm 31:3 NKJV — For You are my rock and my fortress; Therefore, for Your name’s sake, Lead me and guide me.

It immediately brought me through the gloom and set my heart upon trust.

God is my strength and nothing else.

If I’m limited, then He will handle it.

He guides and directs and will continue to.

All that is required of me is to trust and obey.

Praise the Lord!

Dear Lord Jesus,

Thank You for lifting the gloom this morning. Thank You for Your faithfulness. Lord Jesus, You amaze me. Your truth, Your faithfulness, Your love, Your ways are incredible. You turn what seems to be a disaster into a blessing. You use heartache and grief to heal. You build and restore, You guide and direct. Your love is amazing! Thank You for Your wonderous works. May the whole Earth be filled with the knowledge of the glory of You. Amen.

January 6

Today’s prayer:

Great peace have those who love Your law, And nothing causes them to stumble.
Psalms 119:165 NKJV

Dear Lord Jesus,
Thank You for Your truth. Lord, thank You for a new day. Lord, we look to You. It is in You we find peace, contentment, and protection. Lord Jesus, we trust You with every area of our lives, our families, and our nation. God be glorified today. Let Your name be praised. Lord bring back truth, integrity, and justice. Please let honor and understanding and righteousness be sought. Let Your Word be remembered. Please let us fill our hearts and minds with Your Word. Help us to recognize anything which would hinder our walk with You and to deal with it quickly. Lord Jesus, You alone are worthy of all praise, glory, and honor. You are holy and Your truth shall withstand all ages. May the glory of the Lord be known throughout the whole Earth. Amen.