Yet, I clearly saw my recent mental gymnastics reflected in the stressed out “me” in the dream.
It is due to a combination of two priorities which don’t work together: packing our house and homeschooling our son.
I have often had to guard against the mental “what if?”.
Because not only am I fighting my flesh which wants things a certain way, there’s also doubt which tries to wind me up and rob my joy.
But in my heart I have peace.
God will supply all our needs.
He is faithful.
We finished school early.
We started by seven (which is definitely the Lord’s blessing).
We drove down yesterday and signed papers on the new house!
Praise the Lord!
God supplied all our needs throughout.
He has made “a way in the desert”.
I know He will help me get everything done in His time and without me stressing.
Matthew 6:31-33 NKJV — “Therefore do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For after all these things the Gentiles seek. For your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.”
It’s so true!
I have all I need, because Jesus has me.
Dear Lord Jesus,
Thank You for Your patience with me. Thank You for understanding my fears and worries and showing me a better way. Lord, thank You for showing me what I’m struggling with, because if I’m blind to my own sin I can’t repent and turn away from it. Lord, please continue to hone my heart, to help me to be soft, gentle, kind, loving, quick to forgive, quick to listen, slow to anger and slow to speak. Lord, please place a guard upon my lips that I might speak “no unwholesome talk” for I do not want to grieve Your Spirit. I don’t want to spread my own struggles to others. Lord, please forgive me if I have already done so in anyway. Lord thank You for walking us through all these things. Thank You for Your provision of a new home and new job. Lord, please show us how to glorify Your name in all these things. I love You, Jesus! Amen.
John 6:5-6 NKJV — Then Jesus lifted up His eyes, and seeing a great multitude coming toward Him, He said to Philip, “Where shall we buy bread, that these may eat?” But this He said to test him, for He Himself knew what He would do.
John 6:7 NKJV — Philip answered Him, “Two hundred denarii worth of bread is not sufficient for them, that every one of them may have a little.”
Jesus could have simply told Philip what He was going to do.
Instead, He used this test to teach.
Jesus wanted to give all these people what they needed, and knew how He was going to supply the need.
But from Philip’s perspective it was an impossible task.
Matthew 19:26 KJV — But Jesus beheld them, and said unto them, With men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible.
In this provision of a meal for thousands, Jesus was giving a lesson in trust.
He wanted them to understand how loving and faithful God is.
God doesn’t give a task and fail to give His servants that which is needful to accomplish the task.
The Lord knows exactly what is required and He can do the “impossible” to provide for it.
We see such truth throughout scripture:
Abraham and Sarah having a son in their old age. Genesis 21:5
An entire nation of people being fed by God daily from a food never seen before and never eaten again once they reached the Promised Land. Exodus 16:15, Joshua 5:12
Joshua asking God to hold time so they could completely defeat the five armies who were attacking the people Gibeon, the people he promised to protect. Joshua 10:13
Three men living through being thrown into a furnace so hot those who took them died from exposure. Daniel 3:22
Times of testings are often opportunities to learn.
This is the theme for the book of Job.
God allowed him to be tested in extreme ways and in the end Job said:
Job 42:2 NKJV — “I know that You can do everything, And that no purpose of Yours can be withheld from You. You asked, ‘Who is this who hides counsel without knowledge?’ Therefore I have uttered what I did not understand, Things too wonderful for me, which I did not know. Listen, please, and let me speak; You said, ‘I will question you, and you shall answer Me.’ I have heard of You by the hearing of the ear, But now my eye sees You. Therefore I abhor myself, And repent in dust and ashes.”
Job’s test brought him far greater understanding of God and a clearer view of himself.
We see the disciples experience a different type of test in the Gospel of Luke.
1 Then he called his twelve disciples together, and gave them power and authority over all devils, and to cure diseases. 2 And he sent them to preach the kingdom of God, and to heal the sick. 3 And he said unto them, Take nothing for your journey, neither staves, nor scrip, neither bread, neither money; neither have two coats apiece. 6 And they departed, and went through the towns, preaching the gospel, and healing every where. Luke 9:1-3, 6 KJV
The disciples were able to do all Jesus had instructed them to do.
God was faithful to provide all their needs.
Jesus made sure to explain that living in this world as a follower of Christ would not be easy, but the entire Bible tells us God is faithful.
Matthew 7:13-14 NKJV — “Enter by the narrow gate; for wide is the gate and broad is the way that leads to destruction, and there are many who go in by it. Because strait is the gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it.
34 Think not that I am come to send peace on earth: I came not to send peace, but a sword. 35 For I am come to set a man at variance against his father, and the daughter against her mother, and the daughter in law against her mother in law. 36 And a man’s foes shall be they of his own household. 37 He that loveth father or mother more than me is not worthy of me: and he that loveth son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me. 38 And he that taketh not his cross, and followeth after me, is not worthy of me. 39 He that findeth his life shall lose it: and he that loseth his life for my sake shall find it. Matthew 10:34-39 KJV
Following Christ will be just that, walking through trials and tribulations, being misunderstood and yet continually living completely surrendered to the will of God.
While having incredible peace and comfort knowing Who has called us, and trusting He will provide for that which He has told us to do.
With such an understanding, we can grow daily in the knowledge of God and gain a clearer view of ourselves.
Dear Lord Jesus,
Thank You for Your Word. Thank You for Your Holy Spirit which teaches and convicts us of sin. Lord, please continue to help us to learn about You and ourselves. Please help us to grow in our relationship with You daily, that we might love and trust You wholeheartedly. Thank You that You understand us far better than we understand ourselves. Thank You for the tests that teach. I love You, Jesus. Thank You for first loving me. Amen.
Dear Lord Jesus, Thank You for Your Word. Thank You for Your faithfulness. God, You alone are worthy of all honor, all praise, all glory. Lord, please let us see clearly, that we might humble ourselves before You and give all glory and honor to You. Lord, please help us to love as You do. Please teach our hearts to trust in You in all things. Lord, please let us stop learning on ourselves and not plan our ways, but instead surrender completely to Your authority, Your will, Your way. No matter what that looks like, no matter the sacrifice, for You have given so much more than we could ever give. Lord Jesus we praise Your holy name! Thank You for Your mercy. Thank You for Your truth! Thank You for all Your ways are good and truth is found only in You. Lord Jesus, we lift up the hurting, the sick, the wayward, the needy, and the lost. God, we trust You to reach these and if it be possible use us. Lord, we love You. May the whole Earth be filled with the knowledge of the glory of God. Amen.
Sing praise to the Lord , you saints of His, And give thanks at the remembrance of His holy name. For His anger is but for a moment, His favor is for life; Weeping may endure for a night, But joy comes in the morning. Psalms 30:4-5 NKJV
Dear Lord Jesus, Thank You so much for all Your wonderous works. Lord, thank You for Your faithfulness. Thank You for Your love. Lord, we look to You for all things. We trust You for our lives and we honor You as Lord of all. Father, we need Your guidance for our lives, our families, and our nation. Lord, the world needs You. There is evil and brokenness all over. We have reaped the consequences of our sin and we are suffering. Lord Jesus, please heal our land. Please return the prodigal, save the lost, and protect the innocent. Lord, thank You for Your care. Thank You for salvation. Lord, let all the peoples praise You! Let your name be glorified throughout the whole earth. Amen.
As a young adult I often wondered why God waited on things.
My thought was, “I prayed, where is the answer? What are You waiting for?”
It’s only in looking backwards that I can see the reasons He did things.
And very often He did answer, it just didn’t look like what I expected, so I didn’t recognize it for what it was.
So, I’ve learned and I’m still learning about God’s timing.
As I prepared for bed last night, I wanted something to read, something to take my mind off the circumstances our family is in right now.
Our hearts have been heavy with concern for two family members who are dealing with health issues and we’ve also been seeking God for some other family members and the future God has for them.
We know the Lord is in charge and He will see them all through, but I’d be lieing if I didn’t admit we are all pretty emotional and rather spent.
So, I was asking the Lord what I should read.
What about My Word?
Wish I’d thought of that myself, but yes, I will right after I brush my teeth.
While in the other room I noticed a Voice of the Martyr’s Magazine.
My curiosity caused me to flip to the inside and read about a little girl.
She was 7 when a suicide bomber set off a bomb in the courtyard of her church on Easter Sunday in 2019.
Both her parents died and she became blind.
The incredible part of the story is how this has affected her.
She’s a devout Christian and, although she misses her parents,is secure she will be with them again in heaven.
The article mentioned more that her attitude on life is encouraging to others.
After reading this uplifting story, I got in bed and read the book of Ruth.
It’s where I was in my Bible plan and it was perfect.
I wanted to read something to escape, but instead God gave me something to inspire.
Both Ruth and this little girl had experienced great loss.
Both chose to respond by clinging to God.
Both have been rewarded, their lives are testifying to the goodness of God.
How can I say that when the little girl is blind and an orphan?
Because it’s not about her circumstances, it’s about her soul and after reading the article it is clear her soul is safe with Jesus.
It is with renewed vigor that I begin today.
No, our family circumstances have not really changed nor has healing visited those who are hurting, but I know God is faithful.
He sees all that each one is going through and He has a perfect plan for it all.
His timing is perfect.
And I can trust that He is answering our prayers.
I’m looking forward to seeing what He shall do in and through all these things.
And while I’m waiting, I’m going to praise Him.
Dear Lord Jesus,
Thank You so much for leading me to read those two stories. How encouraging it is to see others follow You no matter the cost! What joy to see You working in the lives of others. How great and mighty You are! Your ways are so much higher than our ways and Your thoughts higher than our thoughts. Lord, thank You for being so loving and compassionate. Thank You for carrying us through no matter the circumstance. Thank You for turning what the enemy meant for evil into good. How I long for the day when evil shall be dealt with, but I know it is your great mercy which stays Your hand and I love that. Lord Jesus, I want people to know You. I want people to be saved and I know You want that even more than I. Thank You for being so merciful, so faithful. Amen.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths. Do not be wise in your own eyes; Fear the Lord and depart from evil. Proverbs 3:5-7 NKJV
Dear Lord Jesus, Thank You for Your truth. Thank You for Your Word. Lord, Your ways are so much better than ours. Your plans are perfect. Lord Jesus, I lift up this day to You and I humbly request that You take it and do with it as You see fit. Lord, help my heart to align with Your will. Help my perspective to be Yours. Lord, please help me to be a light that shines to those around me. Please help me to be filled with love for others and to have the heart of a servant. Lord Jesus, You alone are perfect and I trust You. Thank You for all Your wonderous works. Thank You for Your love, Your kindness, Your truth, and Your mercy. Thank You for salvation. Lord, may Your name be glorified throughout the whole Earth! Amen.
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; Philippians 4:6 NKJV
Dear Lord Jesus, Thank You. Thank You for being You, although my understanding of Who You are barely scratches the surface. Lord, You’re good, You give peace, You are patience, You’re faithful, and the list goes on. It is all incredible and I am so blessed by You. Lord, truly, there is nothing to fear when my soul is safe in You. But Lord, I am weak and frail and often I forget how safe I am. Like a little child, I don’t realize the truth: nothing can harm me when I’m in Your hands. Therefore, I choose to place all the things I’ve been concerned about in Your hands this morning. Lord, I surrender my agenda, my desires, my plans unto You and Your perfect will. Lord, thank You for taking every burden, every care. Thank You for continuing to polish me on the inside. Lord, if anyone has wronged me, I forgive them. If I have wronged anyone, please bring it to my attention that I might repent. Lord, I humbly request that You protect the innocent, save the lost, heal the sick and broken, and restore the prodigal. Let men and women call upon the name of the Lord. Thank You. Amen.
At first I just figured it was due to my lack of proper sleep.
I began my normal routine.
But I figured out it was more than just a headache when I realized I was struggling to read.
Then I remembered going to bed with a headache.
I got up and took my inhaler and medication.
Which set my stomach off.
I had a migraine.
I was able to get a yogurt down and later to get my migraine medicine down.
I had to remain in bed.
Thankfully, I have a spiral notebook of review work for Jase and he worked on it alone.
Afterwards, he vacuumed the living room and swept.
He brought me toast and tea.
He kept coming in to “check” on me and reheat the heat pack.
Finally, I moved to the couch so he could check on me a little more easily.
Anne had made lunch, but I couldn’t eat any.
I watched Emma with Kate Beckinsale.
I eventually felt good enough to crochet a bit.
By supper I was definitely improving.
I even ate some dinner.
I went to bed with a mild headache and the heat pack and praised God for His blessings.
Because, although I had a headache, I was still able to enjoy our family when they brought the grandbabies over for an evening of cards.
I even got to hold our grandson while I lay on the couch.
It’s such a comfort to know that I can rest in God’s will even when I’m feeling poorly.
It wasn’t too many years ago that I would chastise myself when sick.
I thought days of illness were days wasted.
All my efforts went to trying to get better fast.
But I’ve learned that God is Sovereign.
And I am precious to Him no matter what my health is.
He knows what is best and His grace is sufficient.
I’m feeling much better today and praising God for it.
I’ll be resting again today and I’m praising God for my family who all take such good care of me.
It’s not about what I wanted to do today, it’s about being willing to do what is best.
To surrender myself, my health, my day into God.
And praising Him through it all, because He is worthy.
Dear Lord Jesus,
Thank You for today. Thank You for Your faithfulness. Thank You for loving and valuing me no matter what I’m experiencing. Lord, please continue to teach me how to trust You and how to walk with You in all things. Thank You for Your unending care and thank You for being good. I trust that even in the days of illness or pain, You are with me. Amen.
These past few days I’ve been reminded of a lesson I learned years ago.
More than ten years ago our family were missionaries.
It took us two years just to get there.
One morning, after a few weeks of settling in, I went to the Lord with a heavy heart.
I prayed about how I was being overwhelmed with the daily tasks of life.
I just felt like laundry, dishes, and mopping the floor was eating up my time and I couldn’t get to the reason I was there.
“Lord, I just want to minister! How can I get to that with nonstop housework?”
He took me to Ruth.
So Ruth the Moabitess said to Naomi, “Please let me go to the field, and glean heads of grain after him in whose sight I may find favor.” And she said to her, “Go, my daughter.” Ruth 2:2 NKJV
She just needed to survive.
But instead of feeling sorry for herself, she did the task at hand.
That was the key.
Housework is just as important as leading a Bible study if my heart is serving Jesus.
God is interested in my heart.
“Am I serving Him in this task I’m engaged in?”
It’s something I’ve been trying to ask myself frequently this week.
Not as a religious stipulation, but instead as a guard rail.
Guarding my heart from useless pursuits or pride.
I also find it helpful as a way to combat an old lie.
As a young believer I thought I had to : “Do big things for God”.
However, the Lord has shown me over and over again that He wants me to surrender my own agenda and simply live daily to Him.
When I’m sick, my “do” shrinks.
In those times, I have found it vital to remember: God isn’t disappointed because I’m not “doing” more.
He knows my limitations.
He even has things for me in those seasons, like prayer, Bible study, or sometimes just resting in His hands and trusting Him while struggling.
The task at hand may not seem valuable.
Ruth couldn’t have known that daily gleaning the fields would endear her to the man who would become her husband.
She couldn’t have seen that this back breaking task, which went on throughout the whole harvest, would end in her having a place in the lineage of Jesus.
Her faithfulness in the task at hand was used by God.
She was His servant.
And God used this humble lady to be the grandmother of kings.
The lesson is clear for me.
I need to do what God has set before me with joy and faithfulness.
I need to surrender my own ambitions, dreams, and desires before Him.
I need to trust Him in everything.
Including my “To Do” list.
Matthew 22:36 NKJV — “Teacher, which is the great commandment in the law?”
Matthew 22:37 NKJV — Jesus said to him, “‘You shall love the LORD your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind.’
Dear Lord Jesus,
Thank You for this lesson. Thank You for continually bringing me back to this place of surrender. Please Lord, help me to be Your servant, humble, faithful, and filled with joy of serving You, no matter what that entails. Lord, thank You that my life is so much more valuable than self fulfillment. Instead, You call me to pick up my cross and follow You. Lord, thank You for reminding me of these truths. Please continue to wash my soul of sin and renew my heart through Your Word. I love You, Jesus. Amen.