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“Good news! You just have a chronic illness. “

It was like the snow covering our car.

“Your blood work says there’s nothing wrong with your immune system, you just have asthma.”

The voice was perky and expectant. She was communicating this was definitely good news.

I was thankful to hear it.

Just as the beauty of the snow is a blessing, I was blessed by the fact that my body is not broken in that way.

Then another thought crossed my brain.

“Then why am I still struggling?”

After a few questions with the kind nurse I hung up.


The snow is beautiful, but it means living differently to accommodate the cold.

The blood test is a good thing, but it means there’s no fixing my every day struggle.

I have asthma.

I’m going to have to learn how to live with it.

I have allergies.

I’m going to have to change my lifestyle permanently to avoid some of those things.

Our house is going to have to change to get rid of the allergens.

“Praise the Lord.”


“Lord, even in this let me always sing Your praises.”

It was fitting.

Anne put a CD of Christian music on.

She doesn’t know how much it blessed me.

I may not have the breath to sing, but my heart can.

If I never feel as good as in the past it really doesn’t matter.

This is where true praise comes from.

“Thank You Jesus for all that this new path has for me and my family. Thank You for every step You are taking me on. If I never recover my former health I know You will be with me. I know You are working in this. I know I can trust You. May Your name be praised from ever part of the Earth and into eternity.”


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I was stunned.

The words leapt off the page.

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When did I suddenly leap from healthy to chronically ill?

Do I get to leap back?

What does it all mean?

How does it affect my future, my family, my job?

Praise God for my husband.

He stepped in at this juncture and gently reminded me it’s not as bad as it sounds.

I’m not alone.

Even in this God’s hand will guide.


He’s right.

Life isn’t about healthy or unhealthy.

It’s about journeying towards Jesus.

The older I get the more I realize this path is simply a daily opportunity.

Because if I didn’t know where I’m going, heaven, I might get confused and think the path is all there is.

But Jesus saved me from my sins long ago and because of that I can journey.

I find myself,

in those moments of discouragement


if I’ll ever be well again.

I have to be honest and say, “I don’t know, but I want to be.”

And with my next breath I have learned to say, “Jesus, I trust You, I love you, even if I’m not. Thank You for this, for in it I have learned You are sovereign.”


There is such blessed peace with that trust and thankfulness.

And it doesn’t end there.

God has blessed me in so many ways.

The list is so very long.

Things like being able to make a new blanket for our coming grandchild, being able to read the Bible together as a family (our goal is to read through in a year), times of heart-to-heart talks, even personal growth in our children because I can’t take care of our daily needs, prayer time growing, the loving acts and words of others, even new relationships with our local pharmacist and lab technician,…

In these things there is so much.

I can truly thank God.

He didn’t make me sick, but He is using it for His glory.

More to come…