But Sarah denied it, saying, “I did not laugh,” for she was afraid. And He said, “No, but you did laugh!” Genesis 18:15 NKJV
How this resonates with my heart!
How often have I done this very thing?
Denied my actions out of fear.
Denied the thoughts of my heart from shame.
And yet how futile, how ridiculous!
To tell God, “No, I didn’t!”.
The picture of a child looking up into my face after I called them out for their behavior flashes into my mind.
They can not accept the truth and therefore deny it: “No! I didn’t!”
And my response:
“I saw you.”
And the same it is when my wayward stubborn heart refuses God gentle voice in question, “Why…?”
Just like Sarah, my heart is foolish with fear and I deny the truth.
And just like with Sarah, God responds: “No, but you did…”
What a wonderful God we serve, that He loves us enough to patiently teach and hone our hearts.
Then He does the unexpected.
Now Abraham was one hundred years old when his son Isaac was born to him. And Sarah said, “God has made me laugh, and all who hear will laugh with me.”
Genesis 21:5-6 NKJV
The reason Sarah laughed in the first place was God had told Abraham that she would have a son.
Her heart couldn’t accept God’s promise at first and thus she laughed, because the idea was so far from expectation she found it funny.
But that didn’t hinder God.
And when this miracle happened Sarah laughed again, for pure joy.
Sarah had made a mistake in first not believing God and second in not admitting her doubt.
But God called her on it and then proceeded to follow through with His promise.
Although she made a mistake, she learned from it.
I want to be a woman like Sarah.
When God calls out my unbelief, I pray I remember this story and choose instead to humble myself before Him rather than deny the truth.
When God promises something, may my heart believe and not doubt.
I don’t want to be the child who denies the truth.
I want to be the child who learns from the past and walks with faith.
I want to be able to laugh with complete joy.
Psalm 119:73 KJV — JOD. Thy hands have made me and fashioned me: give me understanding, that I may learn thy commandments.
Dear Lord Jesus,
Thank You for the story of Sarah. Thank You for Your loving kindness and Your faithfulness. Lord, please continue to shine Your truth into my heart and mind. Let me learn from the past and teach me to be an obedient child of God, not wayward or headstrong. Lord, I want to laugh as I see the fulfillment of Your promises, even if those things take many years. Let me hold fast to integrity and to trust You completely. Thank You, Jesus for truth. Thank You for Your love. May the world be filled with the knowledge of You. Amen.