More of Jesus

Although it’s been a great month, with lot’s going on, I’ve found myself struggling.

Mostly with letting go.

Life has taught me when I’m struggling, I need more Jesus.

If I’m feeling stressed or overwhelmed, I need more Jesus.

If I’m weary and burdened, I need more Jesus.

If my asthma is kicked up and my immune system is low, I need more Jesus.

Because it’s through His gentle voice I find wisdom for everything.

Sometimes it’s a matter of rest or diet.

Sometimes it’s a heart issue that needs to be surrendered.

Sometimes I just need more time with my Lord.

As I’ve been seeking God this month through prayer and extra Bible time, I felt led to read A.W. Tozer’s The Pursuit of God.

It’s been wonderful.

Last night’s reading was exactly what I needed to hear.

“All our lives long we might talk of Jesus, and yet we should never come to an end of the sweet things that might be said of Him.” Chapter 3, page 39

“…God is so vastly wonderful, so utterly and completely delightful that He can, without anything other than Himself, meet and overflow the deepest demands of our nature, mysterious and deep as that nature is.” Chapter 3, page 40

There was much more, but these two reminders of Biblical truth were treasure to my heart.

God can and does fulfill all my needs.

Jesus is the most incredible person and there is no end to His goodness, His love, His faithfulness,…

I know these things.

I’ve experienced them to be true.

I just needed a reminder.

I just needed more time with the Lord.

And it has been sweet indeed.

Psalm 104:34 KJV — My meditation of him shall be sweet: I will be glad in the LORD.

Dear Lord Jesus,

Thank You so much for Your truth. Thank You for being all we ever need. Lord Jesus, You truly are good, righteous, pure, holy, noble, faithful, loving, kind, gracious, and so much more. It is You, Lord who sustains us. Please let our hearts be cleansed before You. Please let us be humble and teachable, not haughty or proud. Lord, when we come across anything, joy or pain, let us look to You. Let our lives be focused upon You. Thank You for everything. Thank You for the good and the trials, for each are an opportunity to draw closer to You. May the knowledge of You fill the whole Earth. Amen.

At the end of the day

My sweet hubby bought these for me and then planted them in the yard.

I took this picture this morning.

Quickly, as it was just beginning to rain.

As it has done off and on all day.

At one point I didn’t realize it was raining, it was such a gentle mist I hadn’t seen it, but the refreshing smell and gentle dew on my face were like a gift.

The reason being my asthma has been troubling me all day long.

That one short moment I felt as if I could breathe, breathe without hindrance.

When my husband came home this evening he could tell with one look I’ve been struggling today.

We chatted for a little while as he ate.

Among the family business I wanted to share with him something I had noticed.

Two separate times I’d not been feeling well, I had started cleaning the house like it was a do or die kind of job.

I told my husband, upon reflection, I seemed to be counteracting some loss of control with more try.

When what I really needed to do was let it go.

And it wasn’t until the end of the day, right now, I can reflect on how important that is in any circumstance.

When things are causing me anxiety, like not breathing freely, I need to not put in more effort.

Instead, I need to do less, and pray more.

Because I can’t always tell I’m not breathing well.

As weird as it sounds, I sometimes just feel extra jittery, almost like too much caffeine.

My patience is also much reduced and little things, like a few dishes in the sink, can suddenly feel overwhelming.

It can be put in much shorter terms.

I’m stressed.

When stressed, whether due to physical or some other reason, my first response is to take charge and make changes.

Uhg.

Not what Jesus says.

1 Peter 5:6 NKJV — Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time,

1 Peter 5:7 NKJV — casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you.

Humility doesn’t say, “Move aside, I’ve got this.”

Instead, it’s patient, waiting upon the Lord, at peace.

For the humble has understanding of the One Who cares for them has “got this”.

As I close my day, I’m so thankful for the reminder of what I already know.

I don’t have to try harder.

I simply have to humble myself and pray.

I pray the end of your day is as blessed as mine has been.

God be with you.