Boxing up

I had a dream last night about packing.

It was weird (as most dreams tend to be).

Yet, I clearly saw my recent mental gymnastics reflected in the stressed out “me” in the dream.

It is due to a combination of two priorities which don’t work together: packing our house and homeschooling our son.

I have often had to guard against the mental “what if?”.

Because not only am I fighting my flesh which wants things a certain way, there’s also doubt which tries to wind me up and rob my joy.

But in my heart I have peace.

God will supply all our needs.

He is faithful.

Like yesterday.

We finished school early.

We started by seven (which is definitely the Lord’s blessing).

We drove down yesterday and signed papers on the new house!

Praise the Lord!

God supplied all our needs throughout.

He has made “a way in the desert”.

I know He will help me get everything done in His time and without me stressing.

Matthew 6:31-33 NKJV — “Therefore do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For after all these things the Gentiles seek. For your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.”

It’s so true!

I have all I need, because Jesus has me.

Dear Lord Jesus,

Thank You for Your patience with me. Thank You for understanding my fears and worries and showing me a better way. Lord, thank You for showing me what I’m struggling with, because if I’m blind to my own sin I can’t repent and turn away from it. Lord, please continue to hone my heart, to help me to be soft, gentle, kind, loving, quick to forgive, quick to listen, slow to anger and slow to speak. Lord, please place a guard upon my lips that I might speak “no unwholesome talk” for I do not want to grieve Your Spirit. I don’t want to spread my own struggles to others. Lord, please forgive me if I have already done so in anyway. Lord thank You for walking us through all these things. Thank You for Your provision of a new home and new job. Lord, please show us how to glorify Your name in all these things. I love You, Jesus! Amen.