It began rather early.
I woke before 6, not breathing well.
Often times, when I’m not breathing well in my sleep, I have upsetting dreams.
This was the case, so I actually didn’t notice how much I was struggling to breathe, because my emotions were all stirred up over the disturbing dream.
I spent a long time in prayer and with my Bible.
It was a bit later, as I was getting breakfast, when I realized my asthma was kicked up.
I’m certain it was the Lord, helping me to see myself realistically.
As the day wore on, it continued to be troublesome.
Later in the evening, I had an attack.
Anne is here, and was quick to get her Daddy, who set up my nebulizer for me.
The treatment worked and we were all thankful.
Today, I will be dependent upon my family, as I am exhausted from yesterday.
Yet, there’s so much joy in admitting my needs.
Because God has always known my limitations and when I choose to humble my heart, I can clearly see how much I need Him.
Whether I’m in good health or not.
He has always been faithful to supply all my needs.
Those times, when it felt as if something was lacking, were always points where I had stubbornly refused to surrender my ideas to Him.
It was never that He didn’t supply my needs, it was that He didn’t do it my way.
My own willfulness blinded me to His provision.
Thankfully, I’m learning.
Instead of starting the day off telling God what I’m going to do, I begin by asking Him what His plan is for me.
Thus, I can admit my limitations without fear, because I know He shall supply all.
1 John 1:9 KJV — If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
Dear Lord Jesus,
Thank You for supplying all I need for salvation. Nothing on this earth is as lasting nor as needed. Lord, I thank You for Your faithfulness to me each day. Thank You for my family who are so loving and compassionate. Thank You for their gentle care for me. Lord, for those who are struggling with fear and need, please help them to look to You. Lord, show those who are in need what is required for peace, they must surrender themselves completely before You and accept Your gift of salvation. Nothing else matters like eternity. Thank You for Your love. Thank You for Your sacrifice that paid the price for all sin. Lord, please let me never cheapen nor slight the magnitude of that. Thank You for all Your wonderous works! Amen.