I’ve never thought about it before, but it’s true.
Surrender to Jesus brings rest to my soul.
Because it causes self to be powerless.
As a child and youth I was always worried about how others’ thought of me.
Who I was always needed forming into the ideas of those around me.
I had to live up to their expectations.
I had to follow through on what they wanted.
Of course, I couldn’t.
So, with every failure I felt it was a proof that I was a failure.
Therefore, with each failing, my value became less and my need to prove myself became greater.
Yes, I did believe in Jesus during this time.
No, I didn’t walk in submission to Him, nor did I understand what that was.
But as I walked in adulthood and learned the truths of scripture, I began to understand.
As I’ve walked in obedience to my Father and Lord, I’ve found such blessed freedom.
It’s been a slow process and a long journey, but well worth it.
When my heart gained understanding and humility, my burden to prove myself, rolled off.
My need to order and control my life also died.
Yes, I still work at living a self disciplined and scheduled way, but that is completely different from trying to control circumstances or order life into my ideas of how it should be.
And I can tell you how peaceful and beautiful it is to surrender.
No, I don’t always understand what’s occurring around me or how to handle specific circumstances.
No, I don’t need to have all the control, call the shots, or be in charge.
Yes, I know the One Who does.
And as I grow in the knowledge of God Almighty, I grow in love, peace, and assurance.
He is good.
He is loving.
He is truth.
Why strive against Him by stubborn refusal to submit my whole heart, my whole life to His perfect plan?
Yes, my soul has found rest.
Rest in the Lord , and wait patiently for Him; Do not fret because of him who prospers in his way, Because of the man who brings wicked schemes to pass. Cease from anger, and forsake wrath; Do not fret— it only causes harm.
Psalms 37:7-8 NKJV
Dear Lord Jesus,
Thank You so much for teaching me how to surrender to You. Thank You for Your patience and Your grace. Lord, often I become stiff-necked and willful. I forget all Your past faithfulness and try to do things in my own strength. Lord, how foolish and what a waste! Please continue to patiently bring me back to this place of rest.