At the end of the day

My sweet hubby bought these for me and then planted them in the yard.

I took this picture this morning.

Quickly, as it was just beginning to rain.

As it has done off and on all day.

At one point I didn’t realize it was raining, it was such a gentle mist I hadn’t seen it, but the refreshing smell and gentle dew on my face were like a gift.

The reason being my asthma has been troubling me all day long.

That one short moment I felt as if I could breathe, breathe without hindrance.

When my husband came home this evening he could tell with one look I’ve been struggling today.

We chatted for a little while as he ate.

Among the family business I wanted to share with him something I had noticed.

Two separate times I’d not been feeling well, I had started cleaning the house like it was a do or die kind of job.

I told my husband, upon reflection, I seemed to be counteracting some loss of control with more try.

When what I really needed to do was let it go.

And it wasn’t until the end of the day, right now, I can reflect on how important that is in any circumstance.

When things are causing me anxiety, like not breathing freely, I need to not put in more effort.

Instead, I need to do less, and pray more.

Because I can’t always tell I’m not breathing well.

As weird as it sounds, I sometimes just feel extra jittery, almost like too much caffeine.

My patience is also much reduced and little things, like a few dishes in the sink, can suddenly feel overwhelming.

It can be put in much shorter terms.

I’m stressed.

When stressed, whether due to physical or some other reason, my first response is to take charge and make changes.

Uhg.

Not what Jesus says.

1 Peter 5:6 NKJV — Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time,

1 Peter 5:7 NKJV — casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you.

Humility doesn’t say, “Move aside, I’ve got this.”

Instead, it’s patient, waiting upon the Lord, at peace.

For the humble has understanding of the One Who cares for them has “got this”.

As I close my day, I’m so thankful for the reminder of what I already know.

I don’t have to try harder.

I simply have to humble myself and pray.

I pray the end of your day is as blessed as mine has been.

God be with you.