Saturday, I had been putting something in my calendar and had a bit of a shock.
My sister-in-law’s shower is coming up.
“Oh no! Lord, I don’t have anything made for her. What am I going to make in the amount of time I have with my other projects unfinished?”
It’s incredible the gentle way He handles my heart.
Make a sweater,hat, and bag. And don’t worry, you have lots of time.
Because my brain spouts questions and doubting without the slightest hindrance, I responded:
“But Lord, I can’t possibly get all that done. I have these other things I have to do first. To do all that I’d need to stop my other projects.”
It’s alright. I will lead you.
All my concern melted.
“Yes, Lord. I’m sorry for being afraid.”
Later in the day I was busy working on a surprise for our granddaughter, my son-in-law walked in followed by the rest of the family.
Anne quietly removed the gift in progress.
Because I’m always crocheting when not doing anything else, I grabbed out some soft yarn and began working on the sweater.
It’s nearly finished.
It would have been done yesterday, but one piece has been super difficult.
I had to rip it out and restart three times.
The last time was this morning before church.
I couldn’t understand why it was giving me so much trouble.
My prayers turned to inquiry.
“God, why isn’t this working? You told me to make this. What am I doing wrong?”
Little one, you are trying to tackle this like an enemy to be overcome. I gave this to you to enjoy. It’s about the process and the finished result being a blessing. It’s not a challenge to conquer.
I had to apologise.
He’s taught me this lesson before.
There is fun in the doing.
He doesn’t want me to create just as a duty, but as a joy.
If it were only about getting a gift, I could buy something.
It’s so much more.
It’s about praying for the baby who will wear it.
It’s about loving the Creator who created both this baby and me.
It’s about learning more about Jesus as I create.
After all, the care and effort and joy I have in making something pales compared to His in making each of us.
And it’s an opportunity.
Creating something with the abilities God has taught me is a way to praise Him.
And I never want to miss that.
I’m hopeful that I’ll be able to finish it today.
But even if I don’t, I’m going to enjoy the process, not just the finished result.
Because life is so much deeper than the doing, the accomplished.
Life is truly about relationship.
I’m so thankful for my relationship with my Lord Jesus.
How amazing He is!