You’ve probably figured out by now that I never get tired of taking pictures of flowers.
Part of that lies in the fact that they are new.
I know I have sunflower pictures, but I don’t have a picture of this sunflower, it’s new!
I wish I could say I have the same exuberance over every new in my life.
Unfortunately, my common emotion is fear.
I know there is a terrible flaw in me when I look at life’s changes and I come up grasping the old things.
The flaw lies in my heart.
I am afraid of the new because I don’t know what to expect.
I don’t know how to plan.
I don’t have any idea what my needs will be so I can’t prepare.
These are the old, ugly, finger prints of leaning on my own strength, of doing things in my own will.
As I’ve been being renewed by Jesus, He’s been showing me the blessings of letting that go.
In the past I tried to control my life, schedule, family in an effort to make it all work!
I’m not God.
I can’t make anything work.
It’s like ants who have lost their scent line and are simply running around desperate to find it again.
As the Lord has been patiently teaching me to rest in His ways and to let go of all my ideals, opinions, and preferences I’ve learned that new is healthy.
I’m not completely out of the habits of fear and clinging to the old, but I’m learning to see it coming so I can place it back in the hands of Jesus.
Thank You for all You have done. You have answered so many of my prayers. I could fill up many many books telling of Your greatness and Your faithfulness. Please continue to uphold me and my family as we seek to honor You with our actions, attitude, and words. Help us to continue to live new each day for You without our own ideas and desires clouding the path. Hold us, for we are quick to return to the old ways. Thank You, for You alone are our strength and in You we are new!”